Living with hate in Portland

June 1, 2017

It’s been a long time since my city had such an emotional week. Maybe in November 1988 when three skinheads murdered an Ethiopian immigrant named Mulugeta Seraw, ripping the scab off the supposedly liberal wonderland of Portland, Oregon. It showed us the ugliness underneath that had been there since Oregon was founded as the nation’s only “whites only” state in 1859. Last Friday that wound was opened times three.


A local “patriot activist” named Jeremy Christian had been bouncing around on the fringes of the alt right movement. He had been seen seig heiling at a “free speech” rally earlier in the spring and around town going on racist, Islamophobic, and anti-immigrant rants. His Facebook page was all over the place, hoping Trump would be his new Hitler, idolizing the Oklahoma City Bomber, briefly defending Bernie Sanders against Hillary Clinton, and, most recently, wanting to kill those who perform circumcisions. He was an equal opportunity hate machine. And as the world now knows, last Friday that hate became lethal.

I used to ride Portland’s Max train a lot when I was single. It was often a source of free entertainment and a bit of sociological research. It’s a busted circus train where the human zoo gets to mingle. It might be obnoxious teenagers trying to size up an elderly woman dressed like she just climbed down from the Russian steppe. Or maybe a suave hobo trying to make small talk with a tightly-pressed banker. It’s never the same and always seasoned with a dash of risk. At any stop the anti-Christ might step on board and take the train to hell.

That’s what happened Friday when Jeremy Christian got on the Green Line on my side of town and started harassing two teenage girls who had gotten on the wrong train on their way to the mall. Homeless Christian started ranting that it was his train because he paid taxes and they should leave his country. One of the girls was black and the other wore a hijab, so Christian launched into a racist, anti-Muslim tirade. The poor girls had nowhere to go. Three passengers, Ricky Best, Micah David-Cole Fletcher and Taliesin Myrddin Namkai-Meche, tried to get the maniac to back down and Christian quickly pulled out a knife and stabbed each man in the neck, killing Best and Namkai-Meche.

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On Friday afternoon, while this was happening, I was on my way back from the University of Oregon in Eugene where I had attended a workshop on implicit bias. My thoughts were on beating the traffic to pick up Cozy from daycare. My mind drifted to my wife’s new job at an immigration law firm and the family of squirrels that had made a home in my attic, threatening to chew through our home’s wiring. While I was trying to pick which lane would get me home the fastest a man my same age, also a father, was laying on the Hollywood Max platform, bleeding to death and thinking his last thought. There’s a good chance I had met Ricky Best. He worked for the city and we often take city employees on our Fair Housing Council bus tour where we discuss Oregon’s dark history and encourage people to stand up to hate. Our bus driver is sure that we was one our riders.


Those three men were the best of Portland; a Republican army veteran, a recent college graduate with a new job, and a PSU student who did spoken word poetry about Islamophobia. They were white men, not girls of color. They could have just thought, “Hey, this is not about me.” But it was about them. It was about us and how we stand together against the darkness. Riders on the train took off their clothes to try to stop the blood gushing from their necks while Christian, waving his knife, ran away. As Namkai-Meche gasped for life he managed to say, “I want everyone one the train to know I love them.”

When I first heard the news, I went into “official” mode. As the chair of Oregon’s Coalition Against Hate Crime I had to alert the network of community partners and start talking to our contacts in the Portland Police Bureau and the Department of Justice about an appropriate response. There were vigils to speak at and interviews to give to put this horrific crime in context, including on NPR’s All Things Considered. The “hate crime expert” hat was on and there was important work to do.


On Tuesday, I told a CNN crew I would meet them for an interview at the growing memorial at the Hollywood Max station. That’s when my expert hat fell off.

The Max station is now covered in chalk messages of love and tolerance, flowers, candles, and pictures of the stabbing victims. It was overwhelming, this complete coming together in an outpouring of collective grief and appreciation for these heroes. Two little girls were drawing chalk hearts on the pavement with Rick’s, Michah’s and Taliesin’s name in then. I thought about how much Cozy loves to chalk on the sidewalk and I broke down. How do you explain this kind of hate to a child? The next two interviews I gave they had to stop because I broke into tears in the middle of them. This wasn’t academic anymore, this was my community.

We’ve made so much progress as a society. All the measures show kids are much more tolerant than previous generations. HR departments have equity managers and police departments do trainings on implicit bias. Even in the middle of Trump’s wink and nod to our worst qualities which has unleashed a new permissiveness for hate and bullying, we’re still better than we were. Trump and his thugs are a passing fad. The moral arc of the universe is long but it bends away from bullies.


At the memorial, I wept because I forgot that. I thought my 30 years of work on this issue amounted to nothing if hate mongers were still slaying good people on commuter trains. But all the work we do has paid off. We are better. There will always be monsters like Jeremy Christian, who see themselves as righteous patriots. They will fall through the cracks no matter how small we make them. Let us stand up to them each and every time. We’ve come to far to turn back now.

I got home from a series of interviews last night and saw that our cat had killed one of the parents of the baby squirrel that was living in our attic and just felt the weight of the grey Portland sky.


10 thoughts on “Living with hate in Portland

  1. This reminds me of a case that happened in Fort Hood, TX. Nidal Hassan (I’m not calling him major because it has been stripped from him) opened gun fire “in the name of Allah.” I am very familiar where that happened because I used to hang out there when I was stationed there. The more people talked about him the more recognition he was getting.

    That’s what is going on here. Yes, it’s unfortunate and a travesty about what happened. By no means am I condoning what he did. But why is Christian even worth the time and breath? Is he truly worth the time, breath, and energy to even talk about? He may get the death penalty, but it’s not like the state will execute him because they refuse to execute anyone. You might as well keep going on about Trump than Christian.


  2. so sad for your city as well as the men killed. they were very brave to tackle this idiot. sometimes i think the world has gone mad, but this not the world, just a whack job that should have been in a mental ward somewhere , so he couldn’t hurt people. all the signs of crazy long before this happened. so senseless. breaks my heart for the dead men and of course their loved ones . i have been the victim of senseless violence. i know the empty feeling that makes one feel there should have been a way to keep it from happening at all. sadly in this case and in mine, there does not seem to be. expect to shut up the idiots that think violence is the answer to a problem. i am including Trump in this awful mind set.

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  3. As a recent (almost two years) transplant to Portland, I’d like to thank you for what you’re doing. I see far too many smug white liberals who pat themselves on the back for putting a “Black Lives Matter” sign in their yard. You’re actually walking the walk.

    I was horrified by this crime, of course, but I have been heartened a bit by the people of Portland’s response. If there’s anything a mostly sedentary, middle-aged white woman can do, let me know.

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  4. Mr. Randy Blazak:

    Your commentary on the zoo-like nature of a train car is an accurate one, and it is fascinating to analyse such a situation in a sociological and ethnocentric context. As a frequent commute, I suppose you would begin to find patterns that would suggest the possibility that “at any stop the anti-Christ might step on board and take the train to hell.” The application of this practice is easily transferable to any other common social situation.

    However instructive this practice may be, I am most awed by your surprisingly, and refreshingly, optimistic view of this period of hate as a “passing fad.” I know plenty of people disheartened by the hate that has been allowed to run rampant, and I believe your comment has brought a whisper of light into a dark time. Thank you for your hope, and may it spread to all hearts.

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  5. I saw something I found interesting. When something is said or done, the left always says something about it and makes a mountain out of a mole hill. Bill Maher made a racial slur and it’s interesting that that the left or media hasn’t really said anything about it. I guess it’s ok when one of their says the n word, but when it’s someone else, they’ll ruin someone’s life and career. He should be taken off HBO after saying what he said.


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